Hey, haven't wrote in a while. So I'm going to try and catch all of you up and do separate categories of everything that's happening. So It may not flow the greatest. But I'm going to do my best.
Friday January 31st was a lot to handle. I had to go in for an ultrasound, I found I was going to be head coach for Girls on the run that day as well. So Just a lot happening. While finding out I was going to be head coach for Girls on the run, I also learned I had training for Girls on the run the very next day for eight hours. Plus I had a ton of online stuff to do to get ready for Girls on the run. So It was just super overwhelming and exciting at the same time.
With that much happening though, if your not careful, like everything else. It's easy to become manic. Which, I felt myself starting to fall into those tendencies of being manic. So while super excited about being head coach, it was all very overwhelming. Not to mention the fact that I had no idea was going to happen with the ultrasound I had done that day as well.
For those of you that don't know what Girls on the run is, it's a 12 week program for girls in grades 3rd-5th. Every Monday, Wednesday or Tuesday, Thursday after school for about an hour and a half two coaches and a group of 10-12 girls meet for practice. Practice consists of teaching a curriculum and running laps in preparation of a 5k (3.1 miles) I did girls on the run when I was in elementary and I ABSOLUTELY loved it and ever since It's been my dream to be head coach for girls on the run. So to see one of my dreams come true was such an amazing thing to experience, but like I said before, very overwhelming. Especially considering I found out the day before training started.
As for the ultrasound I had earlier that day, when I was around 12 or 13 I noticed a tumor developing, I had it checked out by my OBGYN and she said it was just a fibroidadenoma and not to worry about it unless I felt changes or it become painful. Well, fast forward twelve years, it started to become painful and it felt harder and bigger. So my primary care doctor sent me to go get an ultrasound done on it. Went and got both breasts biopsied (normal practice) and they did in fact find two tumors. One was 3.8cm and the other one was 1.4cm. They said, "they are fibroidadenoma's but if you want we can refer you to a genetics counselor at the cancer center since breast cancer runs in your family." So, I agreed. I also made an appointment with my OBGYN to have her look at them as well.
So, needless to say, my mental health is a mess. I'm worried about the ultrasound, I have a full day of training and I'm exhausted. But I'm CLINGING to God and I'm trusting him and his plans. I firmly believe he knew I was going to be in this exact position, he knew I was going to be receiving all this information at once. I also firmly believe that he is a GOOD God and that he will take care of me. I'm clinging to Jeremiah 29:11, Philippians 4:13 and Proverbs 3:5. God's got this all under control
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